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Ok, I've officially failed Alg. 2. I have to go to summer school. This is pointless, really, I'm mathematically challenged and do not intend on being in a career where I have to find the reciprocal of cos theta. Yea, my plans have changed since freshman year as to what I'm doing with the rest of my life, I'm focusing a lot on broadcasting in comparison to Psychology which is what I'm still interested in, but the money is shit. Broadcasting isn’t an overcrowded field, and the wages are great so long as you find your way into a satellite station.

I'm losing my mind here with whats going on. The move is getting closer and closer, that job that I had lined up for the summer is now gone, so that’s about $400 a month that I can’t be expecting.

This isn’t everyone else’s fault though. I'm to blame for most of it actually. I'm alone again, on a lot different levels. I know I’ve got a lot of people “here” for me, but you know how it is. Just feeling down in the dumps and what have you.

I don’t know how I'm going to explain this one to my mother. Should be pretty interesting.

i got two hours of sleep on monday, thats it. 

im getting literally about 12 hours of sleep a week if im lucky, im taking sleep aids, im drinking warm milk (Nasty by the way), im up all hours of the night on the computer, or reading. thats one thing that its helped, im doing my homework. adding about 6 more hours to your day helps to get things done. 
cheryl isnt doing too well, im so fucking worried about her but i have no idea what to say. sometimes im emotionally retarted. and im using retarted in the sense of deformed, not mentally challanged.

we're kicking ass in asassin, thats about the only completley good thing. and im doing the Broadcast for celebration, live with Ed Betts, James Azar, and Tom. 

i hope this no sleep thing is about stress, it should stop durring the summer then. hopefully.